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wad a FOOL i've been!
"e things u r doin now, izit worthwhile?'. i replied almost immediately, "i dun care bout e outcome, i juz wan to show wad i can provide." thinking bout wad he said, i finally understood wad he meant. i've decided after pondering for quite some time. tt it's no point right and im wasting my time. i guess i juz hav to move on forget e past and carry on wif life. mayb there is someone out there who is better? i dunno either. im in a fucking mood right now. problems bout supervisors problems bout gers problems bout almost anything! i think im down on my luck everything doesn't seem to go smoothly not in my way. lectures by supervisor warning mi wanting to giv mi excuse letter. WTF man! i think u're juz biase everytime picking on mi. juz like in ARDC where that old lame ass did e same. am i suppossed to get the same treatment time and time again. y am i always e one when there r so many ppl out there who did e same. fucking suay! gers r pretty gers r cute gers r nice but they always bring problems problems of the heart. i guess i almost blew it up. liking a ger is nt a crime isn't it? i hav e freedom to like whoever i like to like. but sadly, those who i like dun like mi. i think i found e right ger but the right ger doesn't find mi a right guy. im more of a fren den anything else. man.. y does it always hav to be like this. lastly fuck e world! im in a bad mood todae. but i relli wasn't in e mood. ate and had fun really. but after tt its all downway. curiosity relli kills e cat. guess i shouldn't b so meddlesome didnt wan to noe e truth didnt wan to noe anything coz it hurts. it relli hurts mi deep in my heart. i cld see my brother lost in e world of his didnt act his normal self. i think we're thinking thinking of e same prob we're facing. but i guess he had e upper hand. mi, forever losing. but its alright he mentioned to u b4 and i didnt. thus u wldnt noe how i feel and i dun wan u to noe. i relli dun mind serious. juz wantin u to b happy stayin cute and bubbly and im contented. -MISS YA- COLIN!!! May all your dreams and wishes come true!!! Hope you can get your dream ger!!! one more day and i ain't excited bout it. feelin so fucked up now and i dunno y. i have a wish a dream i could say. but i noe im dreaming my dream it's never gonna happen :( yest was wednesday tommorow will b friday and saturday will juz b saturday. "Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything." guess i woke up on e wrong side of e bed and was late too. didn't have e appetite to eat even though u were there gave some excuse and left e scene. i didn't noe y mayb it's becoz of u. i guess im thinking too much thinking bout u. im giving myself e problems and stess deep down in my heart. i wanted to b alone alone in e world of my own. i guess nobody gonna care bout mi ppl ard mi seem unfriendly. they think im transparent where they dun bother bout mi. sitting alone in a corner i began thinking thinking bout many things and of course u. my eyes started to swell a blurred vision appeared while a tear suddenly trickled down. wiped off immediately though some frens saw, consoled and question y. kept re-assuring i was fine but deep in my heart i was nt. but i hope tmr will b a better day. to see ur cute face and tt smile once again it's enuff to make my day. |
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